Mother’s day has caused me to be reflective this year…I have a two year old…one that gives me fits sometimes (okay, a good part of the time), and quite honestly, sometimes I find it easier to just not be around her for awhile…but although she’s a pistol most of the time, it is definitely worth it to me to have her.  She makes me laugh.  She is so smart sometimes that I stare at her in wonder.  There are definite things about being a mom that I like.

Yesterday morning, Ellie and I road tripped to Cedar Falls to purchase tickets for the Gallagher Bluedorn 08-09 season.  I had been looking for a place to drop her off so i wouldn’t have to take her to potentially stand in a line full of people who may not find humor in a 2 year old being there.

I hadn’t been able to find someone to watch her, and not being able to justify dropping her at daycare for an hour in waverly and pick her up again, only to do that again when I went to work, I decided to suck it up and take her with me.

She was an angel.  She was talking to everyone there…the people next to us ordering tickets, the lady behind the counter…she was charming…and she did beautifully. Sometimes I guess I fear being judged by other parents for not being able to control my always active child that I don’t give her enough credit for the things I know she is capable of doing.

She taught me a lesson today…I should trust her more…I should let her do more things…I shouldn’t hold her back…and I definitely shouldn’t care what those “other moms” think of the job I’m doing.  I mean, as long as my child isn’t causing damage or something of that caliber, she’s probably fine.  We’re probably harder on ourselves as parents than we need to be most of the time.  I guess we just keep telling ourselves thats how we’ll have children that turn out alright.