Okay…in all actuality, I realize there are probably relatively few people who are dying to read what I aim to do in this next year. However, I’m still going to put this out there in order to help myself be more accountable. Read on if you so desire…if you don’t, I promise to attempt to make the next post more fun. Something with pictures, Sue.

I have been struggling with how to make my new year’s resolutions quantifiable and meaningful…well, meaningful is the much, much easier part of that.

I have a lot of goals. Being able to check them off a list at the end of the year is much, much harder.

A couple easy ones…

1)I resolve to read one more book this year than I read last year. Always a good goal I think – especially given my profession. I started keeping track in 2010 of all of the books i read (excluding children’s books – wow, that would be a list!). This year, in order to best last year’s number, I need to read 41.

2)I resolve to exercise in some form at least 306 days this year. Last year’s number 305.

Bringing us to number 3.

3)This is the hard one.

First a confession – I have an anxious personality. I am a worrier. I fret. It is one of the things I wish I could change about myself.

I want to worry less in 2012. My husband may tell you it’s an impossible goal.

I lay in bed some nights unable to go to sleep and confess to my husband that I have “the bad feeling”, as I so often refer to it. You know the one…that feeling in the pit of your stomach that comes from expecting the worst to happen. It’s my anxiety and it’s killing me.

One example…We recently signed up for the Warrior Dash – this crazy, intense 5K. You can check it out at www.warriordash.com. I am scared out of my mind to complete this race. I usually have some anxiety before running at any event…but this one seems to be occupying a lot of my thoughts. I’m not even sure what it is about it that scares me so much. Am I able to run the distance? Absolutely. Am I able to complete the obstacles? I think so. Is it the height that comes with a lot of the obstacles? More than likely. Will worrying about it do me any good? Absolutely not.

My goal for this one – finish…without throwing up beforehand. If I throw up after, it’s a different story, I don’t want to worry so much about doing this that I make myself sick. I want to train as hard as necessary to complete it and maybe even have a bit of fun with my co-workers while doing it.

I want to be rid of the anxiety I have over it.

I want to be free of fear.

I have a feeling it’s going to be harder than I think.