So…haven’t blogged in awhile. The reason…hard drive failure. Sad Day! No, we didn’t lose any photos…we were smart enough to have those backed up. Hopefully, we haven’t lost anything else, as we are in the problem solving process.

So…there may not be anything new for awhile…until we get this thing figured out…unless i come up with another plan.

This is one post I had written a couple of weeks ago and have been sitting on. It’s soul bearing.

This is really out there for me. I feel like I’m sharing way too much.

I’m not sharing it to get a pat on the back. I’m not sharing it to proclaim “hey…look at me”. That isn’t like me. Perhaps why it’s so hard to share. One of my biggest pet peeves is people who lose weight and then suddenly become “better than everyone else”, or at least that’s their perception of themselves. For example, there is this girl that goes to the same gym i do. She started out a little bigger than myself and has lost an incredible amount of weight. But that’s not the only difference I’ve noticed in her. We used to chat while we were working out on machines next to each other. Now when I say Hi…she doesn’t. It’s interesting…and something I will never understand…how losing weight can make you lose part of your personality too.

I will never be that person. Am I proud of my accomplishments? Absolutely. Do I still have a long way to go? Absolutely. I am no better than anyone else on this journey…whether successful or not.

I’m sharing out of honesty. I’m sharing it hoping it will motivate me to keep going.

This is the picture that started it all…that made me want to make a change. I don’t know why it’s hard to share this picture with you…you’ve all seen me at that weight before. And you still accepted me. You still liked me. (at least i think you did.)

It still took me a year after this photo to start…

I made Nathan take this picture a couple of weeks ago…same clothing…two and a half years later.

We’re getting there.

And while we’re on the subject…i don’t think red is my color.